The Accidental Pharisee

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Redefining the Moment

Create in me a clean heart, O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Psalm 51:10

My life is comprised of moments.
48 years of moments.
Some of them are fairly inconsequential.
Others are defining moments.
One became the defining moment in my life--even though I spent a long time ignoring it.
The defining moment in my life? The harsh, life-stealing reality that I was sexually abused.
One of my goals is for this to become just a moment in my life.
Not the defining moment.
Not a defining moment.
Just a moment.
My trusted counselor--and yes, he'll be mentioned frequently in this blog!--is challenging me to let God be the defining moment in my life.
I'm hoping that as I redefine the moment, I can call myself "The Accidental Pharisee, Retired."


  • I'm so sorry you went through that. It is a testament to your faith and trust in God that, even though what happened was horrible and you didn't deserve it, you are taking care of yourself by doing the hard work of healing through seeing a counselor, writing about it, etc. That is very brave and inspiring.

    By Blogger elizabeth, At January 2, 2008 at 11:05 AM  

  • This is a courageous step in the right direction. I'm extremely proud of you.

    By Blogger Tiffany Stuart, At January 2, 2008 at 12:08 PM  

  • That is so, so good, Beth. For too many years I wore a painful past like a garment that I could never clean or throw away. Retired pharisee. Much better! ((((Hugs))))

    By Blogger Patricia, At January 2, 2008 at 1:46 PM  

  • More encouragement.
    I'm humbled--and a bit braver about continuing on.

    By Blogger Beth K. Vogt, At January 2, 2008 at 11:03 PM  

  • Beth can I just say we are on similiar journeys! About 5 years ago God decided that I could no longer ignore the needed healing of being sexual abused. So I've spent the last 5 years in couseling (not continuously though). I am learning to not filter everything through the abuse, I'm learning how to speak God's truth and not the whispered lies of my abuser. It's a long journey but there is so much growth, so much much of GOD working in me....

    By Blogger SharonB, At June 5, 2008 at 10:52 AM  

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